oh my soul.

Writing an update letter to my supporters. As I write… I am so overcome by gratitude to the Lord.

I am here.

I am going to the country of Nepal.

Holy grace face.

But really as I write I am on the verge of tears because I see the faces of hard working people that saved money. They didn’t spend it on themselves but they gave. I see the face of a specific elderly lady in my church that has loved me since I was born. Loved me so much. She doesn’t know that much about me to be honest but she just LOVES ME. 

God places people in our lives that just simply love us for no other reason but they do.

& through those relationships we see God. We see a taste of how much He truly truly loves us.

Rights.

In class we are being challenged to lay down our rights.

What is a right? -something suitable, in conformity with fact, reason, truth, or some standard or principle; correct in judgment or action.

Something our speaker said today, “we are all control freaks when it gets right down  to it. we want power. we want the right. we actually believe we deserve it.”

SO true and good.

Society tells us all day long: YOU can do whatever YOU want.

What a lie.

Jesus is our example. Nobody can refute that. He laid down EVERYTHING. His life.

But while one earth he laid down every single right.

He calls us to do the same. 

Rights we take on

the right to freedom, to be angry, to get married, to have possessions, to have a good reputation, to have protection, to be healthy, to have a home, to be near family or have a family, to live where we want, to work where we want, our time, food and fashion, to choose our way, to save ourselves, and to sleep.

Identity Crisis

This week. was. so insane. To say the least really.

Its really insane how much we can convince ourselves of ANYTHING. If we turn to sin and living for other people we lose ourselves or maybe even create different personalities within ourselves.

What does the Lord see?

We have to ask Him….

God… we say YES. Yes to rest.

“Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Matthew 11:28-30

I have no idea where to begin…

I have been trying to post at least one blog a week based off of what we learned. I only successfully have done that for the first week. Oops.

The second week of class we learned about hearing the voice of God. The biggest lesson learned there was: ask God questions. Not really the ‘why’ questions but the ‘what’ questions. 

Every single person in the class had a word given to them from the speaker. She had been praying for us for weeks. She told me that this is the season where I was going to be pursued by God. & also that I was going to be readying myself for the bridegroom.

This third week we dove into Romans and talked a lot about a Biblical worldview.

One of the first questions asked was, “Would it be easier for you to change God to fit your beliefs, or for you to change your beliefs to fit the character of God?”

That is rough when thinking about injustices. We understand so little. We serve a God who is outside of time. A God that is not man. Whose thoughts we don’t understand.

                                                                   ^this girl

This is Mel and I. She is my one on one. Basically an assigned mentor. She is SO awesome. & is challenging, encouraging, & praying for me so much.

MORE exciting news:

For anyone who doesn’t know me very well: I LOVE BABIES & midwifery & elderly people. To this day, not sure how it all fits together. BUT

I had lunch with a midwife this past week. There are some great programs designed to help women in underdeveloped countries. 

Jeremiah 29:11 

I know NOTHING about my future after late June… but if I wait, listen, & obey God…. the grace is going to ROCK MY WORLD in the best possible way. Thank you Jesus for allowing me to do anything on this earth. 

a few birdies told me something tonight.

In an AMAZING way… can’t wait til I am able to share in a few days. :)