Right here. Right now.

One of the hardest things to do it seems is live in the present. Especially when you have regrets in your past. In high school I was judgmental and offended some people because I justified so many of my mistakes. In college I got in a downward sin spiral because I stopped trying to follow the Lord. Sometimes I just need to tell myself these things ARE THE PAST.

Things I know:

1. God is faithful to us. He always provides.

2. God meets all of us where we are.

Although my new lease on life which has rightfully made my relationship with God my number one priority has happened quickly… I have to stop looking for the approval of others. I have to stop worrying if people that I love think I am a “goody good” or “holier than thou”. I can’t apologize for how I have changed because that change was from the Lord but I do know that Satan wants to use it as a wedge between myself and others. I don’t want to be critical and I don’t want to be silent. This is difficult. Most conflict comes from Satan. God wants unity between believers always. I pray that all people see is the Lord and not me ‘trying too hard’. I have to try to stop trying every second of every day because it has been my biggest habit my entire life. God is doing His work.

I have to let Him do His work through me and not try to take control.