Operation God Date
Welllllll.
I look back at this blog and I have really sucked at keeping up with it. In reality I have sucked with keeping up with a lot of things…. Especially my relationship with the Lord. I have been here many times before. I have ignored this many times before.
Lets just get in right in to the meat of things.
I could rationalize every single part of my walk with the Lord. I can tell you the age I got saved and the events that led up to every ‘back slide’ or poor decision. That would kind of be pointless to do so lets just look at three constants struggles: #1: shame #2: legalism (if I do my part, God will do His. I will get what I want) #3:CONTROL (I want it. And I want it now… number 4 is probably patience.)
Lets just say that these last few weeks I have been going through a bit of a mid-college crisis. It is like every one of those three things is being challenged in a radical dramatic way. Shame: I am ashamed… People know things about me that I really wish that they wouldn’t. {insert pride here}. Legalism: I keep wanting to make conditions for the Lord. Ya know, “God… I am here and I will trust you. I will plan it in accordance to what is comfortable to me and then I need you to make those doors open.” Control: This is one struggle that I learned day one of this new journey. I straight up NONE.
God is showing me in a blunt way: NOBODY CAN PLAN TO BE A CHRISTIAN. I can’t look toward the future and say… Ya know when I stop sinning…. I will make time for God (that day will never come) or When I get this part of my life together….. I will make time for God. When I have this set time (7 a.m. to 7:30 everyday for the rest of my life…. I will have time for God. NONONONO not happenin.. I have to learn to date God, on the daily. That sounds kind of crispy and odd especially to the world. But I don’t know Him as well as someone who has been in church all of their life should. I had my… second or third date with God last night. And I feel like He is gave me some thoughts last night and I am super excited.
I am making a journal!!!!!!!!!!!!
Of course it will be called Operation God Date. What do I not do in Operations? :)
This is… kind of a challenge for me. But I feel like with as much as I like to journal and write notes etc.. This is the way to go and if it will give anyone a spark of an idea on their date with God then DO IT. Do my way or make a way or if you have a way SWEET ACTION already.
everyday I am going to write down on a piece of paper…
Needs:
Desire:
Feelings:
Struggles:
Hurts:
Joys:
This is a way that makes sense to me to completely present myself before the Lord everyday. Along with that I am going to read something out of the word. This is the start of a true new relationship!!!!!! I am so excited.
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